So Far Away.

                                                                   "So Far Away"

Never feared for anything
Never shamed but never free
A laugh that healed the broken heart
With all that it could

Lived a life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart
With all that I could
Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

Plans of what our futures hold
Foolish lies of growing old
It seems we're so invincible
The truth is so cold

A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find
A place in my mind
Where you can stay
You can stay away forever

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

Sleep tight I'm not afraid (not afraid)
The ones that we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me (place for me)
'Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way
To live eternally

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I have so much to say and you're so far away

I love you, you were ready, the pain is strong and urges rise
But I'll see you when He let's me
Your pain is gone, your hands untied

So far away
And I need you to know
So far away
And I need you to, need you to know

P/S: I need you here. :(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7ry4cx6HfY

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There's no real life in hell,
But there's no reality on the world,
Of what we have is fakers,
And all around suck ups and posers

The world is not heaven,
When it's all full of suffering,
Nothing's more precious than children,
Whom smiles relieves anything.

Better to know of what we have,
Before what we have can we lose,
Our sanity and our pride,
Is what us humans are made.

The future holds the brightest light,
To enlighten the world from the darkest night,
So get up and ready like a knight,
For our future and our lives, we shall fight.

Life's not what it's cracked up to be.

Assalamualaikum, wow, I never thought I'm gonna be here again, it's been such a long time since I've wrote a post. My blog is really stupid. Nobody's gonna read it. Lol. Ha ha ha, very funny. ==''

Soooooo anyways, I felt an unsettling feeling inside. I feel like life's not going to to well for me. Like a girl, she has a boyfriend, got a job, the boss's kinda nuts, going to school, people ridicule me. People never see me as me, they see me as a fat, useless, uninteresting guy that's really looking to be hot and just like to impress others to get fake friends. Well, what do you know, you fuckin' wrong!

 People ask me, why do I know so many friends? Is it because to become popular? Is it because to get you noticed? Whatever it is, it's not that. It's just my nature. I like having friends, even when they think I'm annoying. Maybe I'm annoying, 'cause that's how I am. I'm never into popularity. I learned guitar because I like to play it. I like to make friends because I like having friends.

 But actually, all those bullshits that they said about me, is really true. Maybe I'm just trying to be popular, maybe I'm just like all those plastic people. They never knew who I really am, but they kept making conclusions on what they see. People judge on what they see, not on what they know.

 So maybe I'm just plastic.

I love you my guitar~

Hey what's up, down, left, right and all around? Lol. It's been awhile since I came here. Wow, dusty, dusty blog. Even cobwebs and lizards came here. Damn. ==''
So anyway, I love playing guitars. Yeah, really love em', Haha, I'm no good at em' but I'm trying my best to improve and become better. Still it's hard to play the guitar. It takes time and patience *patience is not my thing, ughhh* to learn the ways of the guitar. Man, how does those guitarists learn to play? I mean, they are FUCKIN' AWESOME!

Based on what I know *well, from internet actually*, most of these guitarists started to play guitar at a young age. I just started 2 years ago. ==''. And I'm already 19. Dang. But anyway, people said that anything is possible, so I will try my best to become one of the greatest guitarist in the world. Okay, that's impossible but maybe only just the one of the best guitarist ever. It's my dream.

Now, maybe I won't play the guitar for awhile because my exam is just around the corner. Really, just look down there and you'll find it. FUCK YOU STPM!! -,-

Haha. Maybe after finishing STPM, I want to learn the art of playing guitar, the blues way~ LMAO.

I'm going to list some of the top guitarists that I know so, so, errr, just read. :P
1. Kurt Cobain

- Well this fella is the singer and guitarist of the band Nirvana. Mann, just listen to Smells Like A Teen Spirit and you know how good they are. Their solo is just awesome! But he died in 1994 at a young age because of drug overdose. Well, even though he's dead, people still love his songs.

2. Randy Rhoads

- He's the lead guitarist of the band Ozzy Osbourne, the singer is Ozzy Osbourne himself *a band with the singer's name. Weird*. He's famous for his guitar solo in Crazy Train, just powerful melody with umph. Haha. You know, some people asked me if I took the name 'Randy' from this guy. Haha. Maybe.

3. Kirk Hammet ( my idol :D)

- One of the greatest guitarist in the heavy metal music scene, and he's still alive! Lol. The band Metallica had come up with the best albums, like Master of Puppets, Black, Kill em' All and the recent one, Death Magnetic. His solo are just blistering, with a combination of tapping, scaling, fast pull-offs and hammer-ons, with a side order of sweeping and shred baby, shred! He's into the wah wah effect, and he's one heck of a wah wah master.

4. Synyster Gates

- Avenged Sevenfold lead guitarist, and man, he's good, real good. His solos are melodic, with a touch of fast scaling and tapping, and of course, shred! Haha, I love shred. He can play slow rock, he can play grunge, he can play metal, heck give him anything, he can play it.

5. Michael Padget (another idol of mine~)

- Bullet's own guitarist, and quite a good one. Many people doesn't acknowledge his guitar playing abilities because of his short and somewhat simple solos. But when he played the guitar, he played for the fans, not for money or glory. Just listen to songs like Waking The Demon, Scream Aim Fire, Begging for Mercy, Eye of The Storm, Deliver Us From Evil, End of Days and some others, and you can see his true abilities. He's good, hella good. Haha.

Someday I'm gonna be like one of them! Someday!

:D

Judges outside courts. Blerghhhh.

Hey what's up, down and all around? Are you feeling good? Cool? *I feel stupid asking these questions, -,-''* So it's been awhile. Wow, my blog is so dusty, and weird, Lol. So anyways, judges? What did I mean by judges outside courts? By now, I guess you should relieve in this country, no, in this world we live in, many of us like to judge others, even judges like judging *outside and inside, pffttt* Why is this happening in our society? Man, this so fucked up, in so many levels.

Judging people are categorised according to 4 key elements, based on looks, accomplishments, attitude and the amount of money in your pocket *damn true*. Why people judge others? Well, they are stupid. No. Seriously yes. I meant no. No, it's yes. Why should we judge others? To see who is better? There's no need to compete with others. We need to unite, not ignite.

Judging others are deteriorating the unity of society. Would you like to live in chaos? No right? So don't discriminate others just because they are not better or at par with us. Fuck discrimination, fuck judgementalism *a made up word, lol*

Peace out!

Friends. Kawan. Homies. Muchachos. Mates.

Friends brighten your days, get rid of your worries, put a smile on your face, cheer you up, never bringing you down and most important of all, always be with you. Never will they hurt your feelings, your mentality and your life. They will be the guardians that protect you when you are in trouble.

THANKS FRIENDS. I LOVE YOU GUYS.

I'M SO FORTUNATE TO BE BLESSED WITH FRIENDS LIKE YOU.

MAY GOD BLESS YOU GUYS.

MAY WE STILL BE FRIENDS TILL THE ENDS OF DAYS, AND THE ENDS OF TIMES.

GRACIAS. TERIMA KASIH. ARIGATO.

THANKS FRIENDS. :')

What I want for Eid.

Hey dudes and dudettes, what's up? It's been awhile, but here I am, back in the living flash, or flesh, whichever is good, lol. So, anyways, after almost 2 months, I'm here writing this new post.

Well, Eid is like Christmas, but Eid is for Muslims, and it's a celebration after a month of fasting *fasting is where Muslims don't eating and drink or do anything that can cancel their fast that starts from dawn until dusk*. The best thing about Eid ul-Fitr is that it is the month of forgiveness. Everyone forgive one another on this joyous occasion. Even enemies made up during this festive season. Everybody forgives and forgets, simple enough. But for children *and a small part of myself* enjoy Eid because we will get duit raya. Duit raya is a tradition of giving money to the young ones. But some elders are pretending to be young. LOL. Haha. I, myself wants some duit raya. :D

What I want for Eid is :

1. Forgiveness from Allah.

2. Forgiveness from my mom and dad.

3. Forgiveness from my family.

4. Forgiveness from my friends.

5. Lots of duit raya, :P

6. A good health, so I can go and visit my friends and teachers.

7. More rendang, ketupat and kuih raya.

8. Meet my friends.

9. Meet new friends.

10. Be with the one I love.

11. Made up with my friends

And last but not least

12. Talk to the one I love once ago, but as friends.

That's all. See ya.

Randy, ;)

No one should be alone.

Heyyy, what's up you guys? Not to forget, the gals also. So, it's really been awhile since I've updated, well, you know, with the busy schedule not to mention the exams are just around the corner, -,-.

I want to ask you something, have you ever when you are older, who are you going to end up with? Ever imagined you are married to someone? Having children with that special someone or just end up alone? The alone part maybe bogus, but it can happen. But I want to emphasize on the topic here, no matter what, there always *maybe* be someone out there for you.

THERE IS ALWAYS A PERSON OUT THERE FOR YOU.

Maybe. It's a possibility. You know, almost everyone now are looking for love now, while never think about future. I mean, is the person you choose going to be with you until the ends of time. Maybe it will last but 75% ends up breaking each others' hearts. Love is just a 4 letter word. But it is always taken for granted. What we should look in a person is not their looks, but their hearts. Of how their true personalities, not just their pretty face.

Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind,
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.

William Shakespeare wrote this quote in Mid-Summer Night's Dream, and I think I agree with this quote. Just the outside is not enough, we must dig deep. So deep that we know how they really are. Some people are blinded by the outside, while never see the rotten insides of a person.

Hate leaves ugly scars, love leaves beautiful ones.

Mignon McLaughlin believes that love can be beautiful, if taken care properly. Love can be a wonderful thing, and hate can be such a cruel mistress. While maybe some people said that love sucks, but we all need some love in our lives. If not, it will be a dull life, with no one to share it with.

A bird is a pair. A pair consists of two. So, there is someone out there for you. Love revolves around two people who have feelings for each other. Never think that you are alone in this world. Because alone is so overrated. There is someone out there have the other half of our heart. That special someone belongs to us, and there's nothing can separate us from them. By God's willing, everything will be just as God's plans.

See ya, lovers~
Hope I can find the one with the half of my heart.

:)

A Judge of Discrimination.

Yo, what's up homies? It's been awhile. So much had happened in just 2 months. School are okay in June and July, but start to suck in August. Man, my English are crappier nowadays. Ughh.

So anyway, what do you think is the main reason for people discriminating others? Well, I think, they are just stupid. Plain stupid. Simple enough right? These discriminating people are just a bunch of low -life parasites who are jealous of ourselves. Ever seen the mirror lately? Just judge yourself before judging others. No one is perfect, so don't think that you can be.

Don't ever judge others. Only judges can judge, and they never judge people, only cases. So don't think you are a big shot and can call people with lame names such as stupid or jackass, because the real jackasses here are the person who called it.

Discrimination has many names but I call it crap. There's no need for discrimination, people should live freely with no status imbalance. People should live as one, not divided in groups according to wealth or power. That's just wrong. Very, very wrong. Take an example in Africa and America, the black men are differentiated from the white men. The white takes control while the blacks are left in the dirt and left to suffer.

Why did even discrimination happen in this world? It's just another way to compare people but in a more harsh way. It's sad seeing people fight, we have to come together as one so the world can prosper.

STOP DISCRIMINATION, AND START TO BE FRIENDS.

Sorry for the bad English, it's been awhile since I typed in English. :)
See ya.

The world or you? I rather have you, :'(

It's days like this makes me miss someone, someone I hold dear to my heart, once lost from my thoughts but now reappears back into my mind. It's frustrating, knowing that someone you totally into, just aren't feeling the same towards you. I mean, look at her, she's rich, smart, beautiful while I'm just a fucked up guy that no one cared about. We are too different. I don't know how and why I liked her, but I just am. I can never forget about her. She was on my mind all the time, in the morning, before I sleep, every time. I first saw her standing around at school, that's it man. I've fallen in love with her the moment I saw her. Talk about first look first love dude. Until now, I've never spoken to her in person, I did talk to her in Yahoo Messenger, and Facebook one time. You know what, she's rarely online but when she is, I chatted with her. But now, it's a different thing. She knows that I like her. It's like she's avoiding me. I always look for chances to talk to her, every single chance that I get, I blew it. I really blew it. I never talk to her. Even when I'm going to confess to her, I choked up. I hate myself, really. Everyone told me that I should confess to her, but I didn't. I'm just a coward who talks big but never did what I talked. Every time I listened to Taylor Swift's songs, it reminded me of her, because she loves Taylor Swift. If I was given a wish, a wish by God, I will turn the wheels of time around and tried to change the outcome of this. Because why? She's my heartbeat, and it won't change the fact that I'm in love with her. When I miss her, I always listen to Taylor Swift's songs or looking at her picture. Maybe I'm like a stalker, but I'm not.

If I was given the chance, the chance to change myself, I would change to how she would like me to be. Because she's everything to me. For those who know who I'm talking about, well, just keep it to yourself. If you would like to show this to her, well, go ahead, but I don't know what good will it bring. But this post is dedicated to her, because she's the beat to my heart and I love you.
No one can change the fact that I'm into you. I miss your face, I miss your eyes, I miss your voice. I miss you, I really do, Miss Pretty Eyes. :'(

No love.

Nobody loves me. FULLSTOP.

:(

Regrets and Ignorance.

No matter how hard I try, I still can't get you out off my head, but I know you'll never accept me, because I'm not what you want in a person. I can accept the fact that we will never be together and I just wanna wish you will have a happy life with your loved ones. We are who we are, and we can't change the fact it's going to stay that way. I won't disturb you no more. Still, I want to say that I miss you and always will. Always remember that I will always be by your side. Goodbye dear.

You are what you are.

Hey, how's it hanging? This blog is getting dustier by the minute. Man, it's been a while since I updated my blog. Lol, so this is the first post in the month of May. By the way, happy Mother's Day to all the mothers in the world. Love you all.

You are what you are. The reasons why I've chosen this title are because people are trying to be what they aren't. Let's face it, lots of people are wasting money, time and energy in their never ending effort to be someone else. It's like they are not satisfied with what God blessed them with. We should be grateful that we even live in this world. Some change their looks, some change their personalities and some are just plain crap. Crap I say, crap.

Why do we need to be like others? Is what we are born with isn't enough? Just be what you are, and just discredit the fact that people want us to be more handsome, cool or what other bullshits that you can think of. We are what we are. We can't be like others. These other people have been fortunate to have experienced their lives like what they want, but it doesn't mean that they are happy. They might been more miserable than us normal people.

To sum it up, no one is perfect. We have our goods and flaws that makes us human. So no need to change to what you want to be, because what you are is enough in the eyes of others.

Chiaow.
This is Randy, signing off.

Two f*ckin' days.

Ughhh, these recent two days doesn't work out for me.
Things go way out of hand
Fudge. *another way of saying the F word*
=_=

Ughh, damn.

BFMV - Just Another Star

Ahh!
This is what I can see through my eyes.
This is the color of your sunrise.
This is what I can see through your eyes.
Jump, jump, jump, jump.
Can you see the light behind these eyes?
jump, jump, jump, jump.
Can you see the light behind these?
Eyes, eyes, you’ve betrayed me for the last time!

Ahh!

You betrayed me for the last time.
Through the light I see the truth shine.
This is how I can see through your eyes.
Jump, jump, jump, jump.
Can you see the light behind these eyes?
Jump, jump, jump, jump.
Can you see the light behind these?
Eyes, eyes, you’ve betrayed me for the last time!


You're just another star that's burnt out too quickly.
But I still see you, shining.
I'm just another guy that's fucked up immensely, but you still love me.
Why I don't know!


This is what I see through my eyes.
Black is the color of your sunrise.
This is what I can see through my eyes.
This is the color of your, sunshine.


You're just another star that's burnt out too quickly.
But I still see you, shining.
I'm just another guy that's fucked up immensely, but you still love me.
Why I don't know!
Go!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DoQ_Dl_lW1E

MUET : Done. :)

OHHHHHH YEAHHHHHHH!!!

Muet is over! Oh my freaking goshhhh.
Muahahahahaha.
I like. :)

English is not tough. It's the mind set that is important.
:)

P/S: I miss youuuu, :)

Confident? Don't be. Just be brave.

Heyyy, long time no see? Lol, how are you guys and gals nowadays? If you ask me, I'm doing fine and well, alhamdulillah. :).

So, what to do, what to do? Hmmmm, ah! I know.

Are you confident? Overconfident perhaps? Under confident maybe? No matter what it is, you should have confidence in yourself. No confidence, nothing you can do. But you can change, and be more confident and more open towards life.

One way to build your confidence is to hang out with friends, or maybe make new friends. By talking and interacting, we will feel like we can be with others, and that, motivates us to be a more confident person. If you feel like you doesn't have any confident at all, no sweat, you can build it.
Confidence aren't like others, we need them in our life. We need confidence to talk to others, to present something, or to sing, or just maybe to do something. Being confident is a good thing. :)

But don't ever, ever, EVER be overconfident. This may bring DOOM! *nahhh, just kidding, lol* Overconfident is the worst thing to have because when we are overconfident, we tend to take things less serious and just do things as we like. This is very bad, very, very, VERY bad! *I tend to exaggerate, lol* Just down right confident is enough. No need for the over part, haha.

So you see, we need confidence to be prepared in this cold, harsh world because no one can succeed just with looks, talents and riches. We need to talk and present ourselves, and we can achieve by being confident. :)

So, this is Randy sighing off. *Why am I sighing? My MUET exam is tomorrow, and I'm not prepared, ==''*
Lol, see ya.

MUET? Omg!

Tomorrow is my MUET test!

Damn, haven't prepared!! Ughhhh.

Tomorrow is the speaking test. Sooo, I'm gonna crap a lot.

:)

Miss you.

I Miss You Sensei.

:)

Just what I've ordered!

Hey, sup? Noo, I'm not asking for sup, hahaha. How are you my darling readers? Hope you all stay well and happy. Soooo, did I order something you say? Haha, no no no, it's what I've ordered.
Lol

Ever wanted to meet a genie who can grant our wishes? Our love wishes? Our deepest, darkest wishes and such? Boy, I sure would like to meet one so that I can repair and improve my life. Because it sucks, bad. -_-''. Think of all the things I can wish for just for my entertainment and pleasure. I can get anything just by wishing for it. The genie can do all that we ask. It's the life of luxury with a genie around. It would be fun and easy! I want one! T^T

Sooo, why did I want a genie? Well, to improve myself. But even without a genie, we can improve ourselves. How, you might ask? By working hard, and never, ever, EVER give up. Just by wishing is not enough, we have to work for it. Nothing can come without working. That's not the way of life. If just sitting around could get you everything, then no one would work. Then our way of life will be disturbed. It's not good. No one would even get up to do something. It's very sad.

With hard work and perseverance, we can achieve anything, including greatness *well, not greatness, but you know what I mean, ^_^* Haha, I got the giggles during writing this post because of what crap I typed just now. Lol. But we need to work hard, nothing can come from just standing around doing anything. Look at all those who had succeeded, ask them what they've done, they will probably say, 'Work hard', :). So, need I say more? Work hard, but work smart, than you will succeed.

Sooo, let me conclude by saying that if we work hard, anything is possible. Never say never *I say never say never, but I said never 2 times already, haha, Epic Fail* Be ready, like Spongebob. Haha. So, just be yourself, work hard, and just be patient. Everything is possible. ;)

This is Randy, signing off.
:)